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Thursday, November 20th, 2003
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3:13 pm - THE 10 BEST RULES
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in such a good mood and have been for like the past uhh...today and yesterday so goo me yippy!!!! ok i think these r really funny------
THE 10 RULES FOR DATING MY DAUGHTER
1. if u pull into the driveway and honk, you'd better be delivering a package, because you're sure not picking nething up
2. you dont not touch my daughter in front of me. you may glance at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. if you cant keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, i will remove them.
3. i am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips. please dont take this as an insult, but you and all of your friends are complete idiots. still, i want to be fair and open minded about this issue,so i propose this compromise: you may come to the door with your underwear showing and your pants ten sizes too big, and i will not object. however, in order to ensure that your clothes do not, in fact, come off during the course of your date with my daughter, i will take my electric nail gun and fasten your trousers securely in place to your waist.
4. im sure youve been told that in todays world, sex without utilizing a "barrier method" of some kind can kill you. let me elaborate, when it comes to sex, i am the barrier, and i will kill you
5. it is usually understood that in order for us to get to know eachother, we should talk about sports, politics, and other issues of the day. please do not do this. the only information i require from ou is an indication of when you expect to have my daughter safely back at my house, and the only word i need from you on this subject is "early"
6. i have no doubt you are a popular fellow, with many opportunities to date other girls. this is fine with me as long as it is okay with my daughter. otherwise, once you have gone out with my little girl, you will continue to date no one but her until she is finished with you. if you maker her cry, i will make you cry
7. as you stand in my front hallway, waiting for my daughter to appear, and more than an hour goes by, do not sigh and fidget. if you want to be on tie for the movie, you should not be dating. my daughter is putting on her makeup, a process that can take longer than painting the Golden State Bridge. instead of just standing there, why dont you do somthin useful, like changing the oil in my car?
8. the following places are not appropriate for a date with my daughter: places where there are beds, sofas, or anthing softer than a wooden stool. places where ther are not parents, policemen, or nuns within eyesight. places where there is darkness. places where there is dancing, holding hands, or happiness. places where the ambient temperature is warm enough to induce my daughter to wear shorts, tank tops, midriff T-shirts, or anthing other than overalls, a swearter, and a goose down parka- zipped up to her throatd. movies with a strong romantic or sexual theme are to be avoided: movies which features chan saw are okay. hockey games are okay. old folks homes are better.
9. do not lie to me. i may appear to be a potbellied, balding, middle-aged, dimwitted has-been. but on issues relating my daughter, i am the all-knowing, merciless god of your unicers. if i ask you where you are going and with whom, you have one chance to tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. i have a shotgun, a shover, and five acres behind the house. do not trifle with me.
10. be afraid. be very afraid, it takes very little for me to mistake the sound of your car for a chopper coming in over a rice paddy near Hanoi. when my Agent Orange starts acting up, the voices in my head frequently tell me to clean the guns as i wait for you to bring my daughter home. as soon as yuou pull into the driveway you should exit your car with both hands in plain sight. speak the perimeter password, announce in a clear voice that you have brought my daughter home safely and early, then return to your car- there is no need for you to come inside. the camouflaged face at the window is mine.
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| Sunday, November 16th, 2003
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9:57 pm
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ok i dont really know what to write bout but i thought i would since i havnt in a while....im the only one sleepn on a real bed, my bro and dad r sleepn in sleeping bags and my mom sleeps on the couch like she has i think for like the past year....pretty much everything is packed up in my room i have clothes out for this week i have my tv and stereo and my bed and dressers and thats bout it thats left in my room except for the boxes lyin round....theres only one couch and a love seat thing left so i guess that means my mom is sleepn on the floor now too...im sittn here typn and the keyboard is in my lap cuz there is no desk ne more and the monitor is on a tv tray...the big tv is on the floor...the horses have been gone for a couple of days now,wierd feedn my rabbits wit no one but me down there....just boxes every where...fights bout who gets what and where shit goes...money problems...tryn to be strong but its not workn..some ppl might say, " o shes over reactin and shes dwelling on nothn", others might say, " im sry for what ur goin through" but what i say is that this is shit and its not fair, they were supposed to wait until i was in college they promised but nooo im not a good enough reason ne more...some ppl might say, " well they shouldnt wait just to make u happy, they should do what they need to do when they need to wether it meets ur needs or not" i say fuck all u ppl who think that..i know they rnt happy and they've been like this for a long ass time like 5 years i think..if they've waited this long y couldnt they wait a couple of more years??....i found out a lot of shit that went on between them all these years that i dont think i should share but they r both so harsh to eachother and i think shouldnt have gottn married in the first place..but i was told that things werent the same...that somethin changed and just never changed back just got worse....its a lot harder than u think to go through all of this...iv lived here almost all of my life and i dont want to leave it... my best friend lives 2 houses up the street from me and i love her soo much that i dont want to leave her...when one of us r havn problems we r just a few seconds away ....i always thought we'd sneek outa our houses together but now its goin to be kinda hard since im goin to be like 10-15 minutes away now...its goin to seem like a couple hours to me... im leaving my loved ones...my neighbors r the best...ones on my street and ones a couple streets away but they r all close to me....gnite
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| Saturday, November 8th, 2003
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2:02 pm
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turns out what i did was wrong things didnt work out and rite now i couldnt even be round him im too hurt and i know i was wit other guys and i know how he feels but i always came back to him and it sounds like hes not goin to come back at all i should have said somthin sooner i really should but now all i can do is wish him luck i guess... on a lil better note i broke the law yesterday felt really good i think i should do it more often...become a rebel and not be good girl ne more sounds good to me... start doin drugs not feeln a thing not havn emotions just bein drunk all the time sounds good doesnt it, not really but i want the pain to go away and i just so badly want to say some things but it wont do ne good now so whats the point
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| Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
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7:05 pm
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i dont know what i did, was it wrong or was it right??....i really dont know
i want to be with him, in his arms. im so happy when i talk to him...whenever im down he picks me ukp with his angel wings, i usually dont believe or talk about angels but he sure is one. hes what holds my heart together no matter where i am or who im with he warms my heart and my thoughts. ive tried moving on several times but it doesnt seem to work, its not the same, hes the one for me. i realized it even more when he found another girl. it felt like someone ripped me open and tore my heart out, my mind was off everything else and focused just on him and how much it effected me. we hae had a lot of history i guess you could say but i want there to be future with us, i dont want to give him up or let him go im not ready for that and i dont even know if i ever will be ready for it
i did something yesterday taht might have been the worst thing and the biggest mistake or the best thing and the biggest step to take...no one knows, i sure as hell dont, well not until he talks to me, maybe not today or tomorrow but someday.
i just hope that if things dont work out between us i hope we still stay best friends because tats what i see us as right now, well maybe not this moment but you know what i mean
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| Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
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9:21 pm
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so it wasnt perfect timing and im a chicken and a bitch sry for all the pain i put u through but maybe u dont have to go through ne more...im scared of the outcome of my actions, i try to express myself but always at the wrong time, im always too late...(blocked thoughts)DONE
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6:05 pm
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| Tuesday, October 28th, 2003
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8:24 pm
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OMG this weekend was by far one of the best ever...friday i saw scary movie 3....saturday pretty much did nothin....sunday went to steves house wit a couple of his buds.....last nite i went to midgets house wit jen and steve and a couple of other buds....and today just stayed round the house and did nothn...but this weekend was just great nothin really went wrong i had so much fuckn fun u dont even know
Also this weekend i spent most if it wit jen as well as steve but jen and i i think learned so much more bout eachother and just the way we act and everything....we have been best friends since like kindergarden but the past year we havnt really been that close and had some difficulties but i think just in this weekend we became a lot closer and r goin to be closer and i understand her so much better than i did and we just had an amazing time and i dont think ill ever forget what we did...i love jen shes my girl ya know and just couldnt ask for a better best friend....I LOVE U GIRLIE!!!!!
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| Sunday, October 26th, 2003
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12:51 am
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damn this is kinda scary just sittn here watchn the fire just make its way down the mountain side in several spots and just hope my friends horses r ok cuz their ranch caught on fire in moorpark and just watchn it for the past 6 hours prolly its just some scary shit. now there is this trail of fire comin down the hill prolly if u get off of sycamore like in that direction and its comin down pretty fast like a snake just comin down chasn its food, cuz its just a skinny line of fire, so ya im done for rite now cuz i wanna watch some more
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| Friday, October 24th, 2003
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11:22 pm
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I LOVE YOU, y is it so hard for ppl to say that to the person they really do care for and love? well dont ask me im confused as well. lately iv been thinkin a lot bout relationships and shit like that and how some guys u just want to fuck and get it over wit, some guys u just want to flirt wit a lil, and some u really want a lasting relationship wit. if a girl fucks a guy or 2 or 3 or more they have all respect lost for them by a lot of ppl but some ppl stay ur friend and still respect u even wit ur actions they judge u by ur personality. if u flirt wit someone or some ppl, some ppl dont even look at it as a bad thing, it doesnt even fase them and they dont get mad or ne thing, some ppl on the other hand get all butt hurt and pissed and think u playn umteen(spelling?) guys at once. then there are those of us who want a long lasting relationship, relationships r the best u have someone to run too when ur down, when ur happy, or u just wanna talk and hang, and kiss and love. LIFE IS COMPLICATED, LOVE IS CONFUSING...... love just doesnt go away as much as u say u dont like that person of love them ne more thats a fuckn lie but ya... thats it for rite now i guess I LOVE YOU, see its so easy in words but not in person y is that, its fuckn gay
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| Wednesday, October 15th, 2003
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9:24 pm
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b4 u read this one read the one below it first, but just to tell u the poems r supposed to be seperated like this
IS THIS CHANGE
FOR BETTER OR
FOR WORSE
LET FATE DECIDE
YOU ARE MY VIRTUE
YOU MAKE MY WORLD COME ALIVE
MY FEARS RUN AND HIDE
MY WISHES COME TRUE
WITH THE VIEW OF MY NEW LIFE WITH YOU
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9:04 pm
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ok i really dont feel like writing ne thing thats goin on right now even tho most of u know.... but i know i should update my journal cuz i havnt in a while... i want u to give me an input on what u think of a couple of things iv been writn down... here r 2 poems if thats what u want to call them, i didnt put time and effort into them i just got bored in a couple of classes and started thinkin and wrote them in a matter of minutes so i hope they r ok
IS THIS CHANGE YOUR ARE MY VIRTUE
FOR BETTER OR YOU MAKE MY WORLD COME ALIVE
FOR WORSE MY FEARS RUN AND HIDE
LET FATE DECIDE MY WISHES COME TRUE
WITH THE VIEW OF MY NEW LIFE WITH YOU
ok so ya theres what i have hope u liked them
ok u know what everyone is goin to know sooner or later so i might as well say somthin..... my life is falling apart right now well at least i think it is.... i know its goin to get better but for right now it just sux ass...my parents r gettn the divorce, my house sold, i have to be out by nov. 21, my mom bought a house right behind simi high which i like the house but hate the location new ppl new life i hate it absolutly hate it, my dad is lookn at mobile homes in moorpark so ill be just next to no one i know and then in a fuckn mobile home park wit old ppl and no one my age, my grades suck but im tryn to fix them and im just sick of ppl assuming that im always upset and depressed but i have a right to be right now u have no idea what im goin through and some of u do but some of u just need to shut the fuck up!!! so ya thats everything in a shortened virsion. give me ur input tell me what u think or just read and not comment w/e u want i dont care cuz i dont write this shit for u i write it for me its a way for myself to let out whatever i have inside me.
on a brighter note im goin to homecoming this weekend wit chad and then the football game on friday wit him too, im goin to have a great time cuz chads just chad i dk hes really sweet so this weekend is goin to be one that i wont forget!!
37 days
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| Wednesday, October 8th, 2003
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3:22 pm
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Today was an ok day better than some....
My first class was history nad we were fuckn outlining and reading the whole time. i also have hw in that class bout what we read which is gay but i have to do it to maintain my good grade.
Second period was english, boring as hell and my teacher is a bitch ass whore!!! we are goin over verbs and shit and i had to go write my answers on the board, omg i hate going up infront of the class cuz im so shy. but owell i have to get over it sometime MAYBE!!!
Third was spanish 2, o joy so much fun. as most of u pplz know im struggling majorly in that class but im workn on it. im so proud of myself cuz my lowest grade in a couple of weeks on a quiz was a C, i got A's on the rest. im starting to prove to myself taht i can actually do it. i only have 1/2 a practice page to do cuz i did the other 2 1/2 in class cuz i had extra time, so thats good.
Fourth was CP bio, that class wasnt bad cuz the ppl that sit round me are great and make me forget how boring and slow the class is, tonight tho i have to study for a ch. test and hopefully get a good grade cuz im not doin so good in that class either even tho its really easy.
Fifth was pe which is always fun cuz i just fuck round the whole time(not literally come on ppl keep thos minds to PG13)hehe but it was wierd today cuz of somthin that happened last night wit this guy but i wont get into that
6th was math which is really easy i finish my work wit like 30 to 45 min left omg so boring, but i screwed myself last year cuz i failed algera 1 all year and i took AB in summer school cuz i didnt feel like doin the whole thing so now im in CD and i hate it theres like no challenge really but w/e its an easy A cuz rite now i have 202 outa 203 so its all good.
ok so today at school i was supposed to say hi to adam this guy that iv been talkn to online but have never met in person but nooo i was to shy to say hi, and im really mad at myself too but o well theres always tomorrow.
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Even tho u cant click on it here just put it into the site thingy if u know what im talkn bout!!hehe im not very good at explaining things but thats ok
? OF THE DAY....... if a girl starts taken boxing lessons is that a turn on or a turn off? do u think u might think of her a different way?
PLZ COMMENT AT LEAST GIVE ME AN ANSWER ON MY ?s THANX
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| Tuesday, October 7th, 2003
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9:05 pm
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ok well the first entry in my live journal....first of all i found out that one of my friends left me a comment that hurt me so much i just cant believe that person would even think of doin that as a joke, my life is goin pretty bad right now and that just added to it.
ok so moving on i guess recently there have been lil crushes i have had on certain ppl but iv gotten shot down by 2 of them which kinda sux cuz those were the ones that i had the biggest crushes on but i guess things like that happen. one of them i have known since last year but never really got to know him or talk to im that much, the other one i just met but havnt really met but im looking forward to it. im upset of course and dont know how long it will take me to get past them, and it always works out that when i dont like someone ne more they end up liken me i mean talk bout great timing.
now school its goin not so good lets just put it that way but im working on it cuz i need to prove myself to everyone and to myself because of last year when i got bad grades all year everyone thought i was stupid and i just want to prove them wrong and show them that im not cuz i know im not. i used to be a A B student and that just all changed. i know i could do a lot better, i could be gettin straigt As. so thats what i am striving for right now.
my family right now is broken up of course.. lately boxes have been piling up in almost every room and i had to take everything out from under the house the other and it just wasnt enjoyable. i cryed that night cuz i was starting to believe that this was all a dream but then i woke up to reality actually more like a nightmare, i dont feel like liven this life but i know i have to and i have a lot goin for me so im not goin to do what i almost did awhile ago its not worth it.
my mom and i have been looking at houses and it hasnt been goin well, we had put an offer on one that was perfect but it didnt get accepted so we r kinda screwed right now and we have been looking like crazy and nothing is coming up so we might have to move outa simi like into moorpark or woodranch or someplace like that which is not what i want to do but w/e my mom has to do is what she has to do.
recently i just met a guy but havnt met him yet, seriously he is one of the most easy to talk to and nice ppl i have ever met even tho i havnt met him in person... i dk hes just great i really needed to meet him it was just perfect timing, he always makes me smile when i talk to him, hes sweet, i could go on but ya i just thought i would say that.
last thing i just want to say thank u so much for ur help steve... just to let u guys know he stays up wit me endless hours and just sits there and listens and stays on the phone wit me tell i fall asleep so i dont do ne thing stupid or have to sit by myself. i dont know where i would be without him. ur my best friend and i appreciate everything u do for me.
thats it for now hope u guys enjoy
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| Saturday, October 4th, 2003
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2:27 pm - Stuey Got Catilan a Livejournal
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Just writting text to see what everything looks like, yoy. Testing 1 2 3, blah i need to keep typing to see how this all looks out.
Ok this is good.
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